Today is just one of those days… heavy , suffocating really…You know, it doesn’t matter what I seem to accomplish or what I set out to do , every single thing takes extra effort, and seems to add weight to the rather large elephant that I am sure is standing on my chest.
I am not really pouting or complaining either …I genuinely enjoy most of the things in my life but today …today nothing comes easy.
Warning: I may allow myself to be a bit vulnerable here, which I am not good at.
The very first thing I do when I have a “suffocating ” day is start to guilt my self for not having a better attitude or for not being grateful for how blessed I am …. blah, blah, blah… I am not June Cleaver in Super Woman’s body and unless I am some sort of super hero this is just plain normal! Life is full of weighty type things.. illness, child raising, helping teens write speeches, hormones, dirty laundry , politics, media, and the list goes on… Some days are just going to be hard, right?
All morning I tried to figure out what the heck was going on, and my heart kept saying Breathe (insert eye rolling here) and write. I know all sorts of statistics and studies show how effective deep breathing can be, but I’ve just never really got it. Anyhow, I listened and decided I would spend the afternoon doing just that , in the mountains of course!
I began by having a little pampering, and then I took a walk, taking time to breathe the mountain air, and take in all the beautiful fall foliage & colors , and listen to the sound of the water on the river & feeling the warmth of the sunshine on my face, (all while snapping at least a million pictures!) Thats when I got it!…the breathe part…. Oh, Ive been breathing just fine but not taking in what I , my heart, my soul whatever you want to call it, needed. It was lacking just like being oxygen deprived. It was obvious why everything was so heavy, I needed to breathe… breathe in some of life simple pleasures that I enjoy and make me who I am. Slow and purposeful time . I get so consumed by taking care of everyone & everything else…I hold my breath.
So simple. Just a walk in my one of my favorites places and the elephant is gone…the burdens of life aren’t as heavy…and I’m a better person, wife, mother, &friend…
Breathe & Write
